um, hey!

I need to print some pictures for the card I am making lorenzo.
I want it to be cute and from the heart.
It's funny we don't have an "anniversary", we don't have like a "date", you get me?
I sort of like it.
We have been together since like late october.
He says my birthday (september) but that's obv not right.
Anywho, his birthday I guess will be my chance to be cute and mushy. Ew.
But no really, just to thank him on being the great person he is and always being able to make me happy.


I really am so grateful for him.
Freshman year, who would've known?!

Colombia with him and the family June 11.
The day the World Cup starts, boo!
Should be fun though :)
CAN'T WAIT~

Saturday is Lorenzo's birthday. We will be celebrating at Peanut Island all day!
Fun under the sun.
Snorkeling, drinking, bbqing.


Babe and some boys wanna shroom there.
That bothers me.
Why would I wanna be around you on your birthday if you're on shrooms.
It's not that bad, I would know, but still.
I rather him get drunk and high or whatever than do shrooms.
Oh well.


His life, his birthday, I'll have a smile on my face either way.

UGH.


I need to work out, eat healthy, stop eating/doing junk!
I never thought I'd gain weight but like everyone warned me, it caught up to me.
I hate how I feel and look in my clothes.
I never ever thought I would feel like this.
Complete.
Insecureness.
:(

I'm not gonna post the same shit I did on my tumblr but, I am very sleepy.
We went to bed so late last night and woke up super early today.
My stomach feels funny due to all the Panda Express I devoured.
The weather is gray and wet which makes me want to nap in a cold and dark room.
There is a list of things I want.
An even longer list of things I need.

I feel like I am forgetting something I need to do today.
What the hell.
There isn't ever shit to do.
Hopefully tonight, while Loren plays basketball, Amy and I can get together.
I miss her.
A lot.
I know it's not just my fault anymore though.
She is going to school, working, and working out all the time.
Me?
It's just him and I.
Always.
And I LOVE it.

Got it all off my chest with this whole school thing. Told my mom everything I have been holding in for a good two months. I really wish I could start college again but, they should've not pushed me so much.
If they would've let me take a break and let the reality sink in, I wouldn't be in this situation right now.
We wouldn't be in this situation right now.
At least she was understanding. My only concern is how she, or should I say I, am gonna explain this to my father.
I don't want to be a let down or a disappointment. I now know what I must do to have a successful life
in the future.
I'm glad I realized it on my own.

I have so much stuff going on in my head. Nothing having to do with Lorenzo. More like the usual stresses in life: school, work, parents, $$$. And one problem I never though I'd have: my best friend.

Not like she is the problem but more like, now that I have a boyfriend and she's so into being friends with people who are still in highschool makes it quite hard for us to see each other and be how things used to be before she let for school. I feel like a horrible best friend.

I love you Lorenzo Marquez.

I think I say it enough for everyone to be annoyed with me but, it's unlike something I have ever felt before. It's weird but I love it. We have tiny fights here and there but we patch it all up in a matter of seconds. I am not gonna sit here and say that I know he's the one but he feels so different. He asked me, "What if I were to ask you to marry me right now.., would you?"



Only God knows, we are too young but eventually, I think I would.

Thank goodness for those! Time to "tighten up" and focus. Fingers crossed for tomorrow though! Oh and I might be dying my hair tonight. Back to dark. I don't want to regret it though.